Breathtaking

Vincent

《Joanna & 王若琳》

Joanna Wang

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul

Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue

Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are smoothed beneath the artist's Loving hand

Now I understand
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen
They did not know how
Perhaps they'll listen now

For they could not love you
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left inside
On that starry, starry night
You took your life
As lovers often do
But I could have told you, Vincent
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world
And can't forget

Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken
On the virgin snow

Now I think I know
What you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They will not listen
They're not listening still
Perhaps, they never will

Lie

佩服古代那些哲学家，很大程度上不是因为他们深刻，而是能够深刻。

就如同让我等去思考意识的存在，脑子很容易就糊涂了。到底是意识存在于我，还是我存在于意识呢？庄周其实不但很能胡思乱想，还很老实，承认自己脑袋瓜不够聪明，搞不清楚自己和蝴蝶谁才是本体。像他这样整天做梦骑着大鹏在天上飞的才会被自己忽悠到这种程度，我等一般不会，也不能。

有的时候做梦特别真实。梦到回到高中，醒来就特别恍惚，按照弗大哥的说法，那就是我潜意识想要逃避现实，更满足高中的生活了。弗大哥还说，如果总是不断的犯一个错，说明你希望这个错误发生。哎，这真的是忽悠：我天天赖床，因为我想赖床。

梦里的女朋友不是高中那个女朋友。按照Lie to Me里面大师的说法，我不写出名字就是心虚，沦为与克林顿一流同样低级。按照意识流的写法我接下去就要谈到Boston Legal里面关于布什能上台都靠希拉里的桥段了，不过我还不成其为大师，需要控制一下，让文章形散神不散，嗯徐老师一定为我自豪了。

在之前的文章被人说90后，其实想想90后也没什么不好的。我想到的理由很复杂，简单地说就是当个80后装13要被雷劈的，90后就不会。当然万一真的有90后来了我八成又要被骂了。这就是简单地说的坏处：容易被误解。

总之当个80后也不容易。太肤浅自然不行，但是太深刻那一定是装的，煽情点又是郭敬明了，所以我也不敢说我华丽地45°角仰望天空。不敢说就算了，只是有时候在路上，想到再也回不到过去了，你还真想去仰望一下--当然没有这么做。

回不去的有很多。看到小孩子不珍惜，倒也不为他们可惜。就好像过年在家明知道回上海就吃不到妈妈做的糖醋排骨，但是就是没那个胃口多吃一些。回上海后嘴馋也是完全可以遇预见的。

所谓的逆境让人成长，嘴馋让人思考，大概也就是这个道理。

大多数人，大多数无目的性和有目的性写文章的人，如果不写东西，那必定是过得舒服了。不舒服了就想说，但是又不能直说，只能拐弯抹角绞尽脑汁作忧郁状，作愤青状，作犬儒状，作肖邦弹不出的悲伤状。可见装13原本是我们人类的天性。